Dad

Dear Dad, I’m currently in bed with a burnout when it hit me that you won’t be here this Xmas. The first one without you. How many more will there be without you? I haven’t quite figured out how to exist in a world that you don’t exist in. I don’t know where to send this as I don’t know what you address is now. Hope you get it somehow. Thanks for loving me. Esp in the moments when I didn’t deserve that love. I miss you x