Dad

It's been 7 months and I can't process that I'll never speak to you again. I keep texting you and trying to ring you. I know it's weird but I dunno what else to do. I'm terrified I'll forget your voice. Every time I see a hat or someone with your walk I stop being able to breathe in the middle of the street. There are so many mixed emotions like guilt and sadness and regret and anger. I wish I knew you were dying so I could have said what I need to say and gave you more care. I love you